Is it wrong to feel bitter?
Lately I’ve been noticing that I’m so angry, I don’t feel listened to and when I do speak up things get so trivialized. I had an older emergency room visit summary pop up in my email and I read the notes and it’s not at all what was happening at that time. That actively hurts my records , my case , even seeing new doctors that look and come to the conclusion that I’m just being dramatic. I’m tired of explaining the same issues over and over again to people who don’t care to actually listen. I’ve had three different doctors (3 different therapist/ 3 different psychiatrist) since 2020 when this situation started , I explained so many times that I was fearful my panic attacks would take over my life and I was very much dismissed. I wasn’t diagnosed with PTSD til 2020 because of false information given to my doctors as a minor (when I first started having panic attacks) by my other abusive parent. I was given a therapist to help work through the anxiety I was feeling only to have her dismissed by my mother after the third meeting. I always wonder if I was able to get the proper care back then if I would even be in this situation, if all the abusive and trauma that I had went through then was disclosed when asked I might have gotten the proper diagnosis. It’s so frustrating and I can feel myself getting angrier as the days go by, as more issues are found and the more my disorders get dismissed. I’m losing myself in the fear and anger that is my life now and I hate it. #Anxiety #Agoraphobia #PTSD #BingeEatingDisorder #PanicAttacks #ChronicDepression #tired #MentalHealth #ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder