reminders

So to get this over with. My grandfather died from causes. I saw him suffer for a long time. I was upset then and I was even more upset now. My bad moods come in waves. One day I'm alright while other days I'm depressed. Even more of a curse, my grandparents live across the street do you know what that means? Constant reminders! My whole life is filled with them. The reminders hurt. Heck having to run errands for my still alive grandmother makes me upset. Birthdays and other family gatherings suck! Like there's a piece missing and your like "oh yeah" and feel like garbage! I get time heals but it's not healing fast enough! I want to heal sooner! I feel like it's getting worse. I feel lonely and I'm even as far as to not want to see family as they are this one huge reminder about what's making me depressed. I need support. #Grief #Anxiety #Autism #Depression #reminders #Death #Mourn #Mourning

Healing is not linear and does not always mean cured. A disabled body is not a bad body. Your best is good enough. Life may be hard but it is still good. Celebrate the small victories. Meet yourself where you are. You are not your pain. #Migraine #ChronicIllness #reminders

Today the veil is lifting.
Fleeting moments of intense optimism and excitement.
I get to see my son get older and wow at how he’ll be.. imagining the conversations we’ll have and looking forward to all the happy memories we’ll make. It feels crazy at how positive I can feel in one moment when yesterday I could barely hold my head up. Feeling opposite ends of the spectrum so intensely within 24hours can’t be “normal” can it? It’s not. I know it’s not. But is this more than depression? Do I maybe have bipolar? I’ve read many account of people who went undiagnosed before.. Is this the bpd that I was diagnosed with in the past? I have found it so so hard to accept that one and I feel so vulnerable writing it down. Just saying depression and anxiety has always been easier.

Anyway. I’m here to say the veil is lifting and remind anyone in a similar situation (specifically my post yesterday) that the veil does lift. It always does. Even though in the moment it feels like it never will.
I’m here to remind myself also that this has just been a very very hard episode and I’ve had these episodes and periods before. It always gets better. The sun will follow the rain ✨

#Depression #RecurrentDepression #ChronicDepression #BipolarDisorder #BipolarDepression #BPDDiagnosis #Hope #thistooshallpass #PostnatalDepression #PostpartumDepression #reminders

Hi sorry I’m going through a tough time everything in life is wrong right now and I’m just trying to survive and start from zero again. Would anyone be ok being friends or checking in on each other from time to time ? DM Chat or comments ? Thank you if you don’t mind, I’m really struggling and need to reach out for help,

Gonna do my best to check out counselling if free or something I could afford as I’m unemployed and struggle to keep a job. Thank you for any kind words or anyone who doesn’t mind checking on each other everyone now and then. It would mean a lot during this hard time. Thank you everyone, and any help really means so much. #Selflove #Trying #Pain #inpain #Crisis #Tryinghard #hurt #anger #disappoinent #Unexpected #breakup #notcopingwell #ThankYou #lonely #friend #praying #hopeallworksout #ThankYou #reminders #Anxiety #Trying #future #Fear #Pain #Depression #help #self -help #needtobestrong #counselling #reachout #cheerup #DistractMe #needafriend

What helps you change your perspective or a kind reminder when things are hard?

Thanks! #Positivity #positive #happy #Happiness #Joy #Emotions #Journal #Grattitude #Acceptance #Trying #coping #reminders #Selflove