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#EUPD #PTSD #Anxiety #Depression #MentalHealth #Fibromyalgia #Hypotension #Low #Blackouts ful and Complicated life .... Left home 14 .... Don't have family, so I created my own .... In my head ... I had everything and out daughter .... BUT then ... I am only just learning still ... Seems you can have repressed memories that you had block ...... I was SO normal and a social butterfly .... Childhood trauma of all kinds .... Now confirmed why EUPD, PTSD, Fibromyalgia .. As well as anxiety and depression ... Annoying but the lates factors of low blood pressure and 3 reasons .... can't leave the house alone ... Black outs .... When all out ... it was the one time I needed my husband in all those years ...So lost my career, car as can't drive with meds, single mum, marriage, I didn't go for the money or the pensions ... Struggling he is married again.. Reflection I can see we were young ... He is happy now ... I pushed him into marriage .... I had a breakdown ... Failed suicide with pills. Kept trying .... People all think I am SO strong ... Luckily able to work from home as a focus ... (I didn't realise was a group or wouldn't have put work name lol) ....Otherwise, I will overthink, overanalyse and overactive imagination ... On social media have to be all positive ... They all think some mental health and Fibro .... Video calls etc .. Always the clown, bubbly, laughter .....But that isn't how it is .... I have pushed everyone away ..... Isolate ...Yet SO alone ... But independent ..Don't want to be a burden on anyone, have no family ... Feel for my daughter ... I am not the mum I was .... But more people now ... avoiding ..... Was getting social ...But not feel I am too much for anyone ... They can't deal with me ... So upsetting ... So sensitive ..Especially when use my issues against me ... All the 'self harms' just to feel something else, be someone else .... Under police safeguarding due to the trauma. I am a workaholic ... That isn't healthy either, my barriers will always be up ......have no family, people 'check' on me ... But I don't want that ... It is what it is ... I know they are just feeling duty of care ...Make sure I am still here ... I don't want that ... The only reason I am still here after last weekend ..... pathetic .... My loyal Tom cat Fudge ... Unconditional love ... Was licking my tears...I am trying to learn all coping strategies ...But if I am so confused ... How can I expect them to understand ..They are getting impatient ..... As the only ones in my life are .... The strong people ... That knew to push back ..... So they are strong people ...But also means .... They say it as it is ... And I am too sensitive ...I feel critism ... They feel they have to tread on egg shells ..... All I have ever wanted ... I guess that is everyone ... To love and be loved ... So as tried soo hard ....Now back to existing only and not living? For their own good ....I don't come across well, I can be massively misunderstood. Been single 7 years ... Not snow white ... Those people .... I ensured couldn't hurt me or abandon me or reject ..... Shallow and pathetic but blue tick individuals ... A lot younger ... For entertainment .... Just know when I go down again .... I don't think I have the fight in me anymore .... People say get up .....But there is only so many times and can't see hope ... I am too tired .....

Sorry if it sounds negative but any tips for when you’re feeling really low about yourself/ your life? Thanks 🙏

Appreciate any little pick me ups or those who can relate to this sometimes :c #lonely #sad #down #Low #hardonmyself #loser #lowselfesteem #Trying # headspace #Depression #Anxiety #Pickmeup #Tips #Selflove #Quotes #bad day #beatingmyselfupemotionally #selfsabotage #wantselflove #wanttoworkonselfcompassion

Found out today that I’m severely deficient in vitamin D. I’ll be taking 50,000 mg of vitamin D2 once a week for 12 weeks, and then I’ll take 5,000 mg daily. I was shocked when my doctor told me, but it really explains the health issues I’ve been having. My fatigue is horrible today, and I’m so achy. I suspect that my struggles with anxiety are a possible cause of this, because I don’t leave my house or go outside very much. Just hope that this vitamin D will start working its magic soon. 🙁 #Low vitamin d deficiency #Anxiety #Agoraphobia #Vitamins

I moved to a new city in the summer of COVID. I don’t have any friends or partners. I ache for human connection after 2 years of being completely alone. I lost my whole social circle and best friend in a break up, and I moved away. Now I feel so lost. I just want to make one friend. Any ideas during COVID? #Isolation #Anxiety #COVID19 #Depression #Low

I am just overwhelmingly exhausted today. Can’t really seem to get much done without needing to lie down and nap. I know I’m vitamin D deficient, and I’m only a few days off of Ativan so could be experiencing some withdrawal symptoms from that. I long for a day where I’m energized and can get simple tasks accomplished. #Depression #Anxiety #MentalHealth #exhaustion #Ativan #Low vitamin d deficiency

For a week straight now I've been in a really bad low. Normally I get lows but they are gone in like a day, but this has been for a week and I'm struggling. The voices have been extra intrusive and I just want it to stop. Anyone experience this frustration and extreme low? #Schizophrenia #Depression #Low