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So I can really try and make sure you know that I have been diagnosed with so many different things that all have no cure and I have been under the knife at least 15 plus times total and with each diagnosis things seemingly just get worse and harder to find in my body. For me it's just a day in and day out struggle and as for the rest of the world around me I am literally just a pain in their behinds. I've been denied 7 times since the age of 23 for disability and I am now 43 applying for disability again with an attorney. With everything from a rare lung disorder that has caused a total of 11 intubations into a coma because it causes complete lung failure in both of my lungs at the same time to endometriosis and different auto immune diseases to simple conditions as well. Then on top of all those things even including a broken back in 3 spots after a fall, I have multiple mental health issues as well. At the younger ages I was diagnosed with panic attacks, depression and anxiety disorders. I now have ptsd due to all the hospitalizations, bipolar disorder 2 meaning I mostly suffer from depression or depressive moods at least it was that way for almost 30 years to date. As of around the age of 41 that is always how it went. I prayed and asked for God to take the depression away and he did thank heavens. But I don't want my worst enemy to suffer from any of the other problems so it's been hard to say a genuine prayer for those so I am suffering terribly from pain issues and anxiety along side of one more mental health issue not just generalized anxiety but social anxiety on top of that I haven't had this much anxiety and or pain ever in my life. And I can't understand why nobody is doing anything for me as far as doctors are concerned and I am still waiting for disability to be approved. I just need to know what really is the reason why I have so many issues I know that there is something that these doctors aren't telling me about what I need to know and what the disability offices need to know. I will keep pushing and pleading for what I need to know and for what I deserve which is a genuine breakthrough #MentalHealthAwareness #mentalhealthmatters #properdiagnosis #physicalpain #disabilitydoctors #disabilityawareness #iminrealpain

Are you really looking forward to seeing family and friends? or Do you dread being alone? Do you love hearing Christmas songs on the radio or at the mall? or Do you just wish it would be 2024 already? For me it makes me feel a mixture of these…each year I go down to see my mom and family for Chanukah which created social anxiety for me this year but eventually I settled in and enjoyed the company and connections which was nice, then since I came back home at times I have felt sad, lonely and isolated! I celebrated Hanukkah weeks ago and In the past I have felt like so many others are being festive and celebrating Christmas with a decorated house, sparkling tree, and presents for all…without me …especially when I was younger! What are you looking forward to doing this weekend? I send you all blessings for a festive, joyful and special time!

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A little TLC
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It is so easy for me to beat myself up because I feel I’m not accomplishing enough…and thinking other people with the same diagnosis seem to be much more productive and successful. But many friends and family members regularly remind me that just staying alive, dealing with my pain and taking care of myself is a victory. I have learned that it never helps for me to compare myself with people who seem to be capable of doing more…because this just brings on very strong, almost debilitating shame & self judgement and leaves me feeling emotional pain that just adds to the physical pain I already have!

So I try to always remind myself that I am doing just fine dealing with the hardships I face and I am practicing great self care to love myself exactly as I am… and accept that I am unique & different and I’m doing the best I can. It leaves more room to accomplish things that are within the limitations I have due to physical pain!

I send you all blessings for moments of peace, serenity & less pain, and good health & healing!

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My drawing of my paralyzed stomach Also known as “Gastroparesis”….I drew this last year because it was the only visual way of describing just how bad it is to suffer from having a paralyzed stomach that’s not ever going to work right for the rest of my life….My stomach has to rely on a surgical inplantation device called a Gastric Pacemaker that sends electrical signals to my stomach to remind it to digest solid food….To live with this everyday is a struggle but over the last few years, I have learned to accept it for what it is & live the most of life that I can, on top of suffering from mental illness….This saying alone is so very true….So many of us has an invisible illness that no one can see with their own eyes, nor understand what it’s like to suffer with it, unless they themselves have suffered with it or are suffering from it…So no matter what invisible illness you may be suffering from, big or small, try to live life to the best of your ability & just try to enjoy the small moments in life because we only get one life & one chance to do it right….As the saying goes..”Life isn’t about waiting for the storm to pass, it’s about learning to dance in the rain.”

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