Depressive Disorders

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Let me clarify that I'm talking about anger as a symptom here.

What I mean by that is that I have negative and intrusive thoughts every day. But a good day is when I can push these thoughts away easily and a bad one when I believe my mind.

Usually, just before truly bad days come, I have some days I can't figure out what's wrong. I'm so irritable with the smallest things. A person's characteristic I find funny other days, hits on my nerves or a simple arguement can make me bad.

The thing is, I realize it's only my problem. For example, if I have a tiny argument with a friend my mind will go like "you're not suitable as friends, they're going to find out soon and push you away so what's the the point". In the end it's my mind that makes me mad and irritable and not the person or situation so I have a hard time handling socialization like this.

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Hey there, I hope you had some peace of mind today.

So, let me go right in and say that initially this post was supposed to be about handling the fact that I can't get excited. Every time I talk with friends (or hear them talk) about our vacation anxiety is taking over and I keep thinking negatively. I just blame myself for so many things: spending my parent's money, not being able to get excited and not being able to tell that openly. I just feel a bad friend because I want to be there but my mind doesn't let me be okay with that.

But after today's discussion there's more. My friend had some difficulties with anxiety and her therapist told her she should ask us to do many things like go out and meet people. Knowing her, I honestly believe it will help her and it's good that she openly asked for it.

But truth is, if I had a therapist I don't think she would say the same to me. Right now it's hard for me to handle the people I already have in my life. Social anxiety comes and goes and I hate myself in so many aspects I just can't really do the vacation thing. I believe being with friends and being closer to nature will help but my issues won't be solved just like that. I really try not to get mad when I hear that "getting out will help" because yes it can but it doesn't always help and I it's like I should feel guilty for going out and not being helped. I know the wise thing would be to tell them that but I don't think I will.

So, really, it sounds like a lost case but is there anything you would advice me to do, based on your experience, that would help me handle myself and my moods and issues better?

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