Major Depression

I saw a psychiatrist , the best I’ve ever had in my 30+ years of Major Depression with Anxiety disorder. He retired 1 year ago, it was difficult but I found a pHD nurse practitioner who continued the same medications for 6 months. Suddenly she decided it wasn’t good for me to be on Clonazepam 0,5 mg tid and Ambien 5 mg hs. I was doing well with some antidepressant adjustments over those 18 years.
She has tapered me off Ambien and I still have insomnia. She has tapered me down to Clonazepam twice a day, with resulting increased social anxiety, a terrible habit of picking the skin off my thumb until I have sores. I am fearful and anxious. Decreased appetite.reclusiveness to my apartment, no interterests…..I used to read, do crafts. Now all I am interested in is my 2 cats, and my Chihuahua. I was an advocate for wolves and animals that couldn speak for themselves, used to foster kittens and volunteer at an animal she,yet. I no longer drive because of decreased vision and lack of spatial awareness. I have no family living in Denver. I am at odds with my entire family because of the election. I live with my husband in a senior living retirement. My husband is very supportive but he is gone most of the day because he is very involved in activities here.
I need to find a psychiatrist who will allow me to stay on Clonazepam and Ambien, plus my Paxil and Wellbutrin….therapuetic medications that help me maintain some sort of normalcy in my depressed state.
I desperately need help. Her suggestion was to make friends, get out more…which I have tried. All of my best friends live in the Midwest or Northwest, including my two children an 3 grandchildren. Help me please.
#Depression #MajorDepression , #AnxietyDisorder
, #fearful ,#reclusuve ,

These days have been weird, I'm ok and then I'm not. I need and want to work to be more independent. But I 've been dragging this feeling of not leaving my house. I feel terrible, and I'm looking for excuses not to go out tomorrow, then again I will cry because I don't have a job or financial freedom. I know that I am sabotaging myself, I'm totally aware of what I do. I just don't know how to stop it
. *UPDATE* I was able to get a job, I start tomorrow, I'm excited and very hopeful about this new experience. #Update #Newjob #MightyTogether

I went to the doctor today, needed a refill for insulin and my high blood pressure meds. There was a lady playing songs in the waiting room ( it was loud) (Central American Country) I was having a nasty headache since 3am and I asked her to turn it down, she didn't. I don't like confrontation so I left and decided to get there later. When I came home my ex husband had left a note asking where I was ( I get triggered really fast) I tell him on a text that is not his problem. Things escalated so quickly that he called and we started arguing, he suddenly says I have no time for this and blocks me. Then I'm in my bedroom crying with this nasty headache and trying to understand what just happened????? Out of the blue, he sends food, unblocks me and says I'm sorry. I wish, I could finalize my divorce and leave, I have to wait for my daughter to turn 18 so I can have the process done for free since I'm unemployed. Today has been a mess.

Hi! I posted some days ago, about my bad relationship with food and being unemployed. I'm 43 years old, from El Salvador. Started to see a psychiatrist after I was physically abused by my ex husband to be, I filled a restraining order and he cannot get close to me anymore.
My country is in diapers regarding mental health, I got fired from a company because I had appointments and panic attacks. I can't find anyone to talk to besides my daughter who also has OCD, depression and anxiety. But I don't think it's fair for her to be listening to me crying or getting too emotional, so I hope if I can vent here from time to time, things will get better. (English is not my 1st language, sorry for the mistakes)

I’m an Asian woman, 54, living on the west coast. I have BPD, Bipolar/schitzoeffective, anxiety disorder, maj depression and now I find out ADHD/autism. I’m dealing with a lot and it’s overwhelming. I’ve been melting down and I think this is me acknowledging my neurodivergence. I’m confused and feel empty a lot and my friends are few and the ones I have are starting to yell at me for not doing stuff right and I can’t be abused anymore. I lived that way for 50 years. It’s enough. Please reach out. Love to meet some of you.

#BDD #AutismSpectrum #Bipolar1 #SchizoaffectiveDisorder #MajorDepression #MentalHealth #AnorexiaNervosa #BingeEatingDisorder