Hi all, after many efforts without much progress i'm going now a new direction in my healing journey. I've started taking Sertraline for my depression/PTSD/OCD, which i tried to avoid. So far so good (apart from me feeling like i've failed). I want to take as much out of this experience as i can but don't know how....do you have suggestions what i can do to support this path of medication? What can i do to get the most out of it?
I have some cognitive deficits from my thought disorder and unstable mood from my mood disorder. And like a million other issues lol. But I am still capable of showing intelligence and seeming “normal”. So I guess you wouldn’t be able to tell. But truth is my quality of life is very very poor. I am childlike sometimes so I can interpret someone in a maternal or paternal way and want to be emotionally coddled. If I’m not childlike I will just see you as a peer and be “normal” lol. Anyway chat with me if you’re up for it. No commitment tho obv. Just lonely right now. #Depression #Suicide #CheckInWithMe #Support #MoodDisorders #SchizophreniaSpectrumPsychoticDisorders #BipolarAffectiveDisorder #SuicidalIdeation #SuicidalThoughts #SupportGroups #FamilyAndFriends #Relationships #help #Therapy #SchizoaffectiveDisorder #Schizophrenia #DissociativeIdentityDisorder #ObsessiveCompulsiveandRelatedDisorders #Chatspace #Upallnight #Insomnia #SleepWakeDisorders #lonely #alone
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Sibling came home triggered by seeing couples in public while eating. I can't imagine how lonely it feels for them and it makes me feel so bad. Still trying to be supportive but i felt totally useless. Tonight they came home and started yelling about how they feel bad and their usual worries and then went to room to sleep. I feel bad because i came out to living room to sit with him and dad because i didn't just want to leave dad to go through this alone. I don't want sibling to go to through this alone either but all i felt like i could do was sit. i listened to him yell out how much he's hurting. i usually would hug him but when he's upset like this sometimes in the past he has told me he feels weird being hugged. So i decided to just sit and listen. i didn't want to say anything in fear of making it worse. i feel bad how stressed this is making our parents because i know they are really trying to help but their age and health are really crucial with how old they are.
Also feeling bad because he feels bad. I do wish this person was getting more help but i have to remind myself that it's up to the person to want help.
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COMIC STRIP
A Day in the Life of a PWD (Person With a Disability)
Frame 1:
A woman in a classroom appears distressed.
WOMAN: Okay. So, I need to make a list for 'this'...oh yeah, and a list for 'that'...and I haven’t finished the 'other' list...Oh man, I don't have time for this!
Frame 2:
The woman is in the bathroom flushing the toilet several times.
WOMAN: One more flush, and it's clean...
OFF SCREEN: Will you hurry UP in there!
Frame 3:
The woman, looking distressed, is with a friend in a messy apartment.
FRIEND: Geez! What is your problem?!
WOMAN: I don't want to be here...(thinking): The clutter...It's too much. I can't focus!
Frame 4:
The woman is in the living room, checking a light switch.
WOMAN (thinking): Off, off, off...the light is off...
OFF SCREEN: For cripes sake, Jenn! Leave it alone, and let's GO!
Frame 5:
The woman is talking to her friend:
WOMAN: Wow! That's gotta be a one in a million chance!...a one in a million chance!...a one in a million chance!...(thinking): OMG! Stop repeating yourself!
Frame 6:
The woman is with another friend. The friend is picking something out of the woman's hair.
FRIEND (grinning): You have a fluff in your hair...I know, I'm so OCD!
I do not like the person that I have become, I don’t even know what I like or don’t like anymore. Who am I as a person? What do I value? It seems as if everything has been stripped away from me. Nothing makes sense anymore, and the things which aren’t supposed to make any sense in life are those that plague me day and night with a horrendous intensity. I experience constant guilt. I cherish those first five minutes in the morning after waking up before I am struck with the initial shock of OCD. It is like I only have brief moments of peace in interspersed between these obsessions throughout the day. First comes the obsession, then my anxiety kicks in, making it feel as though everything is going to crumple apart if I do not perform a certain action. There is no certainty, there is no room for logic. The only power which prevails this maelstrom is the bug bully — OCD.
Please do check out the entire article at:
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I still remember my very first encounter with OCD. It greeted me with such a vivacious intensity that simply thinking of that day today is enough to get me all creeped up. When the first thought struck me, I was completely taken aback. I did not know that my mind could think this way. I never knew that it was possible for a person to feel such intense bouts of guilt all at once. It was like my mind had been hijacked by some invisible force so strong that only one puff was enough for it to tear down my walls. I was bombarded by innumerable obsessions, fears and accusations. It was only when I had uncloaked the monster that I had realised, it was me who was tormenting myself — I was my own monster.
Do checkout the complete article at:
lumosleviosa.medium.com/3-things-i-wish-i-could-tell-my-youn...
#ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder #Anxiety #MentalHealth #MentalHealthHero #ObsessiveCompulsiveandRelatedDisorders
I still remember my very first encounter with OCD. It greeted me with such a vivacious intensity that simply thinking of that day today is enough to get me all creeped up. When the first thought struck me, I was completely taken aback. I did not know that my mind could think this way. I never knew that it was possible for a person to feel such intense bouts of guilt all at once. It was like my mind had been hijacked by some invisible force so strong that only one puff was enough for it to tear down my walls. I was bombarded by innumerable obsessions, fears and accusations. It was only when I had uncloaked the monster that I had realised, it was me who was tormenting myself — I was my own monster.
Do check out the entire article at:
lumosleviosa.medium.com/3-things-i-wish-i-could-tell-my-youn...
#ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder #MentalHealth #ObsessiveCompulsiveandRelatedDisorders #Anxiety #MentalIllnessStigma #MentalHealthHero
So many kind words and hearts from you all today. At work today, I was kind of zoned out, I think just drained from all the sobbing the previous day. Luckily I didn’t really have to deal with people too much. I felt like it was an accomplishment just to get up and get there this morning, and I know your prayers and support helped push me through. OCD is exhausting! #ObsessiveCompulsiveandRelatedDisorders #Depression #Anxiety #Work #Gratitude
... that I have a massive head ache this morning. Struggling to get up and get ready for work. Please pray for me/send positive thoughts my way. I love you all ♥️
#Depression #Anxiety #ObsessiveCompulsiveandRelatedDisorders #Work
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