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So I'm in the process of being interviewed about ritualistic abuse I lived through as a child (I'll try to avoid going into detail of actual abuse and just stick to talking about my situation now)

Basically due to covid (an other reasons) the interviews were put on hold..
the second I wasn't being interviewed more and More memories started coming back again, then I found out they are angling the case Just towards my biological father and Not the ring of powerful child killers he 'worked' with, this leaves me very afraid for my long term safety.

Well now my brain undug at least two other perpetrators I was trafficked to.
it's like the police saying they are just going after him meant my brain had to release memories of everyone else that it Knows need to be held accountable for the things they have done!!

My biggest concern with them saying that (,well there are Many!) Is that the information that I gave them that they Don't want to ask me any questions about.. is the bit that includes all the murder crime scenes I was at or taken to at..
It's the bit that includes all the rich and powerful people, but it's also the bits where my bio father and others killed children!

I'm worried he will end up with just a slap on the wrist and his name on the a register.. when he and at least 15 other 'men' should be going down as mass murderers!!

How can they call this justice?
How can they try and make this Just a historical family abuse case?
How can the system hide such horrors?
How am I meant to battle this All alone?
How can the police put my life in danger and protect serial killers?
What is actually wrong with the world!?!

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I find myself even now, with the thoughts and feelings of that little 6 year old girl. I'll be 42 next month, with a child of my own. Even with the forgiveness, the healing, the letting go, those victim thoughts and feelings will still try to surface. They certainly don't last as long as they used to and as intense as they did prior to the healing process. The more I grow, the more I understand how my brain was affected. We now understand how trauma effects the brain of a child, which then effects the body. I'm so grateful for the healing in my life. I see, feel and understand things that I couldn't before. Things like empathy, connectedness, forgiveness, real love for myself and others. I hope I never stop healing and growing. Even now, when the little victim cries out, I know what to say to her and what to do for her. I believe that We can heal from anything.
for informational purposes; I started being sexually molested at 6, it went on until 12(when I turned to drugs and alcohol)by 3 different men and raped at 21. I have been clean and sober for 4 years. I have forgiven my abusers, not for them, but to unlock my soul from them.

WOW, what a crazy year it's been!! So to catch you up, let's start back in 2014. My daughter and I survived a horrific car accident that left her paralyzed. In the last 2 years, I went back to school, started a new career and we lost her father to the f'd up disease of addiction. My daughter is 11 now and when she started middle school, her anxiety and adhd went into full steam. We are now exploring the world of alternative education programs.
If I hadn't been clean and sober and healing, there is no way I could be handling all this. I find solice from my crazy brain in my support system (it's a whole bunch of all kinds of things), 12 step groups, my phycologist, my PCP, my friends who get it, meditation and yoga, massages, baths, whatever I find that helps my mental health and to take the best care of myself.
I write this today in a place of "I have no idea what I'm doing."
I know 2 things for sure though, 1) We were saved that morning for a reason and 2) My life has prepared me for being her mother.
I love The Mighty so much and it makes my heart sing to see so many that are healing and want to heal.
Love and light to all my Brothers and Sisters 💜🌈🙏